fool of yourself. There’s a thin line between being brilliantly creative
and acting like the biggest idiot on earth” ~Cynthia Heimel
|“Laugh At Fear”|
Hope everyone had an amazing father’s day and a great weekend!
And sometimes art imitates life, I guess…
It’s Your Time To Shine – some music…
(Brandi does a pretty amazing job herself though 🙂 HERE)
All this planning and thinking ahead has got me thinking back a bit too. I’m so happy that
thinking of online dating, of course the first thing out of everyone’s
mouth was their horror story experience from the daunting realm of the
world wide web. If they hadn’t experience the online disaster
themselves, it was their friend, their sister, or a reality show. Some
guy ended up being the complete opposite of what he said, the date was
the most awkward experience, the date committed this atrocious dating
taboo – the stories were endless and each one felt more intimidating
then the other.
of online dating – this was the first time I had ever tried something
like this. But that was the least of my inexperience. I never had a
boyfriend before. I’d never even been on a casual date before. At 25
years old, I may have been a bit naïve in my romantic experience…but my
life experience certainly made up for it.
because I never felt like I had time for it. I was a busy-body with her
hands on a million projects at once, and was more excited about
auditioning for the latest musical than flirting with the guy whose
locker was closest to mine. I knew I’d have the rest of my life to
date, find love and eventually settle down.
18 – a week before my senior prom – I fell into a coma. What followed
over the next several years were more than two dozen surgeries, and an
odd mixture of feeling like an old soul, wise beyond my years with too
much life experience, and a newborn child rediscovering the world again,
regaining physical strength and suddenly having to be taken care of
this deviant path, so many twists and turns, blessings and curses,
setbacks and triumphs. The biggest one of all was just three years ago.
I was recovering from what was supposed to be my final surgery, but
unfortunately, it left be worse off. I was slowly healing, but my heart
was what needed the most mending. From years of trying to keep my head
up while being so isolated, I was overwhelmed with loneliness all at
once. I was fresh out of the hospital and didn’t have a community of
people my age I could just go out with at night and be social with – no
way to leave this medical thundercloud behind me, even just for a few
hours of relaxation. I had no expectations and nothing to lose…so I set
up an online dating profile for myself using the first dating site I
remember someone mentioning. What was the worst that could happen?
Off To The Hospital!
I’m actually off to Columbia Presybterian Hospital right now – but don’t worry! I’m actually singing for the kids! My brother and I are going to put on a concert for the children there – a nice collection of Disney songs and such.
I remember being wheeled into the lobby to hear the concerts for months and months, and it is just the most amazing, miraculous, wonderfully rewarding feeling that hopefully I can spread some joy to the kids there, kids I feel are still a part of me to this day. Expect a video up some time this week!
“Not everyone is capable of madness; and of those lucky enough to be
capable, not many have the courage for it.” ~August Strindberg